To My Hero, Diego Liu

May 2nd 2016

Diego Sebastian Liu was my hero.

In every way.

A maverick who lived life entirely through endorphins and hard work, but above all, for the people he loved most.

That’s why he’s legendary.

He was my cousin, my older brother and my incredible friend.

The definition of ridiculously irreplaceable, life-altering and fun.

Thank you, Diego.

For all of that.

For being so unbelievably good to me and to so many others.

For teaching me how to play Dr. Mario since we were in diapers, all the way to adventuring with me everywhere in New York City.

I love you.

For being the life of every party, wedding and dinner date. My heart feels broken knowing you’re gone.

But.

Full knowing I was lucky enough to experience such an amazing degree of authenticity, love and loyalty in a human like you.

You were always there. You always showed up. Gave your opinion. Made the joke everyone remembered. And hugged the hell out of all of us on your way in and on your way out.

And to me?

That’s the stuff heroes are made of.

The truth is.

Losing someone is heartwrenching to the absolute nth degree. It’s tough, it feels unfair and leaves a vacancy in your heart you didn’t even know existed. It feels like there’s a permanent pit in your soul and in your stomach accompanied with intense waves of anxiousness, what ifs and the repetition of “I miss you so much”. And I’m so sorry for anyone who ever has to go through that it in any way.

I know what you mean.

But what has been helping me…in losing an unbelievably loved one…is this:

1. Thinking of the best memories they were in, and how much better it was because they were there, and how unchanged those memories will always be. They’re permanent. And they’re yours. To keep. For good.

2. Feeling the feels. Crying it out when you want, distracting yourself when it feels better, but understanding completely that the intense desire to do either? Is a true testament to the love, connection and lucky pleasure you had to know someone so great.

3. Knowing what you’ve got. We’ll always love and miss the people we loved and lost, just now in an even more fond way. But the people who are still here, are ready to memory-make, love the hell out of you and give you a damn hug. So take the time you need, eat the snacks you want and baby step your way into being around a bevy of people who can’t wait to have you back.

^

That’s what I keep telling myself.

And it seems to be working.

And so did writing this:

Diego Sebastion Liu was my hero

In every way.

A maverick who lived life entirely through endorphins and hard work, but above all, for the people he loved most.

And that’s why he’s legendary.

pic stitch diego

Rest in peace my cousin, my older brother and my incredible friend. You will be missed, you’ll always be loved and will never forgotten.